8 posts tagged “pissed”

Why?  Because my mom is a complete ass-hat...  She just called me to let me know that my niece is completely sick, most likely with the flu...  Apparently, she is probably sick because she spent the afternoon taking care of the toddlers my mom babysits as my mom puked her brains out on Friday...  And yet, my mom didn't say a word about it being a bad idea to have Princess over all day Saturday when she knew I was bringing her to my house to hang out with Boogie...  My mom didn't even think it would be a bad idea to go to a wedding on Sunday -- while getting a ride from us...  As I sat there trying to process this all, on my way home from a trip to the grocery store where I felt sick to my stomach more strongly and earlier than when my phenergan usually wears off, she didn't even show any sympathy or empathy for my predicament...  I said something along the lines of being really scared to get the flu because doctors say that you should not take anti-emetics when you have the flu, and I could end up hospitalized if I go off the drugs even when I don't have the flu...  Instead of saying something comforting, or even keeping her stupid mouth shut, she went on to say that it would "really suck" if I got this flu because it's "just violent"...  WTF?!?  If she had ever been anything of a good mother, I might be able to excuse this as a slip-up...  But a part of me thinks that she may be somehow enjoying this and trying to freak me out...  Like all of her talk about how "lucky" I am to have the phenergan -- where she goes on and on about how terrible it was to feel sick for her whole pregnancy and acts like I can't possibly appreciate that sacrifice because my hyperemesis diagnosis and subsequent medication...  Sure, she may have felt sick all the time, and she probably did vomit a couple of times a day like she claims...  As much as that sucks though, I almost ended up in the hospital during the beginning of my first pregnancy...  I lost TWELVE pounds in one week -- after getting to the point that I could not keep anything down for more than 5 minutes over the course of about 48 hours -- before they got me medicated...  How the hell does that add up to me being spoiled by having a phenergan prescription?!?  Gah!  I can't imagine being so cold to my own daughter...  And I guess that is part of the reason I am afraid to have a daughter...  I am afraid that my lack of a good "mom to a daughter" role-model will make me feel even more unprepared for having a little girl...  In the end, I will do to best I can, and I am sure that will be a million times better than my relationship with my own mother...  But still...  I just wish I could scream, or hit her, or pretend she didn't exist...  But a part of me wants to try and salvage this relationship because she is the only mother I have...  FML...  Later days...

Is a pain in the ass...  I am in the process of trying to get my old computer ready to give to my dad and I got a pop-up saying that my copy of Windows did not pass their test and may be counterfeit...  Ummm... No!  I bought this computer straight from Dell...  What the hell?!?  Of course, there is no option to tell them as much...  Only links to buy a "certified genuine" copy of Windows or to tell them my sob story of how I think I bought a counterfeit copy and should receive a complimentary upgrade to "genuine" Windows...  Grrrrrr...  Later days...

Why so many people are insensitive enough to think that they need to continue to make remarks even though I have made it abundantly clear that I am in no way, shape, or form finding it amusing...  Just an FYI for everyone out there: It's only a "joke" when the other person is laughing too...  When you know you're making her cry, and you say it anyway, you're being a dick...  That it all...  Later days...

I know, for a fact, that our boiler is very efficient...  I also know, for a fact, that the company we have contracted to deliver our oil this year has already made a "significant" delivery...  So, how is it that the company we used last year -- for which we did NOT sign a 2008-09 oil delivery contract -- is claiming that they somehow delivered over $200 worth of oil at roughly the same time that the contracted company did?!?  I am seriously ready to flip out on these people...  We specifically told them that we were not using them this year...  So why would they have delivered oil anyway?!?  And this bill shows up right after we got a bill from the same company for a "service call" -- which was really just them returning with the meter they failed to bring the first time they came back to fix their so-called boiler cleaning that left our boiler "less efficient" according to the NYSERDA energy audit test-out...  Aaaggghhhhhhh...  Really not smart to piss off the mentally-unstable lady when your office is surrounded by tanks of petroleum-based products, you know?!? Later days...

So, I just asked the bookkeeper if she had the check for my author who is coming to visit tomorrow night -- and she had no idea what I was talking about...  Forget the fact that I filled out the voucher "so early" (in her words)...  She knows nothing about it, and we do not have a check...  Then, she had the audacity to ask me what the author would "do" if we didn't have the check tomorrow night...  Ummmm...  I don't wanna have to find out...  How about we take this to warp speed priority and actually get it accomplished by tomorrow night?!?  How fing hard is it to print a check and get two board members to sign it in 27 hours?  Apparently, next to impossible...  I think my head is about to explode...  Later days...

I have never had anything sent to a collections agency before...  NEVER!  And now, because Verizon screwed up my enrollment in their "One Bill" program, and because they neglected to send me any sort of notice that I owed them money on an account other than the one I was paying, I now have to jump through all sorts of hoops to make sure that the error gets fixed AND that this does not end up on my credit report...  Are you f*cking kidding me?!?  The whole point of the "One Bill" was that it would make things simpler...  Someone's gonna get an earful on Monday morning, that's for sure...  Grrrrrrrrrrr...  Later days...

I am so sick of the "holier than thou" attitude some people have toward me...  They think that their being older automatically means that they know more than me -- about everything...  Well, let me tell you something...  When it comes to working with teens and advocating for them, these people don't know shit...  I just overheard them say that I don't know what I'M talking about, but they sure as shit know nothing about "real" teens...  They assume that the few trouble makers -- who are mostly misunderstood in the first place -- are the only teens for whom we make our library policies...  And, somehow, they think that this makes it fair to have age discriminatory policies (that only work against teens)...  The other day, a student was hit by a truck as he walked to our library...  Why?  Because he missed his bus home and would have needed a fucking pass (from a teacher, not a parent) to get the bus here -- but he didn't have one...  So, he did like a lot of my teens and walked down a major road (it's less than a 1/2 mile, but still dangerous) to get here...  Unfortunately, he didn't even make it all the way here...  He was hit by a truck and the boat it was towing, so he has a broken nose, stitches all over his face (to the extent that his eyes are swollen shut), broken shoulder blades, a collapsed lung, a broken pelvis, a disconnected hip, and a broken foot...  There were a TON of witnesses -- some his friends and some who were not -- who all said that the kid merely walked across the road (not playing chicken as rumors have stated) and that the driver probably would never have hit him if he didn't freak out and slam on the brakes (causing the truck and boat to skid to the right and hit the kid)...  And yet people still feel as if the teen MUST HAVE done SOMETHING wrong to cause this accident -- citing the so-called fact that, "Teens lie to protect each other."  WTF?!?  Some of these kids were his friends, but some of them didn't even know him -- and I got the same story from all of them...  I am so pissed that I don't think I will be able to get much actual work accomplished right now...  And that's a bad thing, since I am the only one in the children's room AND I have a class coming in at noon...  Gah...  Later days...

I just lost a whole folder full of pictures on my computer, and I have no clue how...  I clicked and dragged a folder, by accident, because my cat bumped me when I was trying to download pictures from my camera...  I think there is a chance that the folder was already deleted before and I just never noticed -- since the one folder I actually saw myself click and drag was "findable"...  Clark thinks that it just happened now (like my computer had some strange hiccup or something?!?)...  It doesn't matter either way, though...  I am just pissed that there may be pictures I never uploaded to flickr (and there are most certainly video clips that were only saved on the computer too)...  Grrrrrr...  Later days...